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Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Brick by Brick...



This week's quote is:

"....the brick walls are there to stop the people who don't want it badly enough. They are there to stop the other people.....Brick walls are there for a reason. They give us a chance to show how badly we want something."

~"Romancing the Brick Wall"
from The Last Lecture
by Dr. Randy Pausch~


Yup! Brick walls are there for a reason. Sometimes God puts them there as a test in the obstacle course of life to see how badly we want something as in the quote above. Other times, we build them ourselves - supposedly for "protecting" our hearts from hurt.


It doesn't matter what kind of brick wall you're up against - sooner or later, it has to be challenged either by climbing over it or taking it down brick by heavy brick. God designed us that way.

No one can live behind a brick wall forever. Oh - I tried. As a child I walled up part of my heart after being hurt by abuse because I didn't know any other way to protect that wounded part of myself. I even hung pretty pictures on the walls of memory to camouflage the bricks on the public side of it. But the private hurting part of me behind the wall grew weaker and weaker with repeated bouts of depression until I reached a point where I had to tear the wall down or die.

There must have been some places where the chinking was missing in that wall I built, because I could hear Jesus on the other side speaking lovingly. Sometimes I'd even find little morsels of hope on my side of the wall. It was enough to eventually give me the strength to want that wall to go rather than guarding it fiercely with my dying breath.

That's all it took - that whispered desire to see the wall torn down. Jesus was right there to take down the first brick. Then He could strengthen me in earnest with hope and love for the rest of the demolition process.

It was tedious. Often I felt too weak and tired to continue. So He let me rest a bit, but never for long at the risk of becoming complacent. A hunger for freedom and wholeness grew until it consumed the weakness and complacency. Dreams of a future and a hope woke me in the night, spurring me to get up and work on that wall again.

The old wall of "protection at any cost" had to be torn down and a new, healthier wall of personal boundaries erected - a wall that allows healthy interaction with the outside world and intimate interaction with Him and trusted others. It was in the process of overcoming that wall that I finally found healing and purpose.

I think I would take Dr. Pausch's statement one step further - the brick walls in life do give us a chance to show how badly we want something - they also develop our spiritual problem-solving abilities and trust muscles as we work at scaling or removing them!

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6 comments:

Denise said...

Such a nice take on this weeks quote, I enjoyed this post.

Robin @ Heart of Wisdom said...

Enjoyed your insight on the quote. Especially the "develop trust muscles" Well done.

I see you like to write fiction. I'm toying with jumping into that genre. I'll be back for more.

lori said...

Bonnie,
As always your perspective is so refreshing and heart felt!
I agree with you and perhaps that is why the quote kept returning to me as well....those brick walls are our chance to develop our spiritual problem solving abilities...Do we know where to go?? Trust muscles...I LOVE that!
Thank you for joining us...
your wisdom is such a blessing!!

peace,
lori

Laurie Ann said...

How well I can identify with the walls you threw up to protect yourself.
Developing the trust muscles to remove them are so hard - but possible. Thank you for such an insightful post.

Karen said...

It's amazing what we do to ourselves sometimes, brick by brick building a wall of protection around us instead of allowing God to take care of that part. Thanks so much, it was wonderful to read.

Michelle Bentham said...

Bonnie,

Well said! My favorite line: "That's all it took - that whispered desire to see the wall torn down." The heartcry of Jesus beckoning us to come forth. And the great part is, with Him by our side, the wall comes down easier than it went up.

Bless You for your faithfulness. You are a treasure and a joy.