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Monday, September 1, 2008

Kindergarten Pirates

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Great to see you here for "In Other Words" Tuesday. Today's hostess Michelle has chosen a great quote to ponder:


“The key to either great purpose or great destruction lies in where we choose to sustain our focus. Knowing this fact should move us to jealously guard our intimacy with the Lord.”

by Bill Johnson
Sr. Pastor, Bethel Church - Redding, CA
(from “Strengthen Yourself in the Lord“)


I was a kindergarten pirate.

From the time I was three years old, my parents were concerned that I had developed some serious vision problems. At first they thought it was humorous because I kept bumping into doorways or chairs which didn't get pushed all the way under the table. But soon they realized the problem was ambliopia - "crossed eyes."

I don't remember it but we made several trips to the famed Will's Eye Hospital in Philadelphia about an hour away from our home where my eyes were examined and I received a hefty prescription for glasses. I was a tiny three year old with glasses the thickness of soda bottle bottoms resting on my little nose.

At the age of five, the doctors decided I needed to wear an ugly black patch over my right eye to force my left eye to focus and to strengthen the muscles so it would become straight.

What a sight I was as I entered first grade. I wore a my right arm in a sling because I fell from a tricycle while playing with my three year old brother and a big ugly black patch over my right eye.

Our eyes, when they work together properly, send signals to our brain in "stereo." Each eye records a slightly different image and the brain puts the two images together to give us a three dimensional picture of the world around us.

Unfortunately, when one eye turns inward like mine did, the images sent to my brain were confusing, blurred and skewed. My brain had difficulty interpreting the conflicting images transmitted by each of my eyes, causing me to run into objects. Often my brain simply "turned off" the images transmitted by my weaker left eye so I no longer was able to see things three dimensionally. That's why I was clumsy and constantly running into objects.

Like my physical well being depended on how my eyes focused as a child, my mental, emotional and spiritual well being as an adult depends on how and where I focus my spiritual eyes.

When I try to focus on things going on inside me, the world around me and on Christ too, it sends my heart confusing, blurred and skewed images. In order to make sense of it all, my heart may "turn off" the less prominent images or sensations. When that happens, all I see are my fears or debilitating memories or emotions because they tend to be the stronger perceptions.

At that point, I need to take time to stop, realize what I'm doing and refocus my eyes consciously on Him. It may mean I have to spend time in deep sharing with the Lord, telling Him how I really feel about things until all my emotions are spent. When my heart is empty, I need to listen to His voice and hear how He sees the situation.

It's like wearing a spiritual eye patch - purposely covering up my heart's stronger perceptions in order to strengthen my weaker God-perceptions. As a child, I had to wear the patch for many months until my left eye grew stronger. As an adult, it means I may have to step aside at times from my "busyness" to get alone with my Friend and Father to focus solely on our relationship. Though I have many excuses, it is NECESSARY for my inner well being.

Thankfully, the glasses I wear today are a lot more lightweight and MUCH thinner (state-of-the-art no-line bifocals with anti-reflective coating and transition lenses that darken in the sun so I don't need special sunglasses. Woohoo!) But the fact remains I still have problems with the way my eyes focus.

As long as I live I will have problems with my spiritual focus too - it's a fact of life that we battle daily with our old nature. But by guarding our relationship with our Friend and Father jealously, and consciously refocusing on Him whenever we realize our vision is becoming skewed, we will continue to strengthen our hearts and walk in intimacy with Him.

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5 comments:

Karen said...

That was a good illustration you gave today. Thanks for sharing.

Michelle Bentham said...

"It's like wearing a spiritual eye patch - purposely covering up my heart's stronger perceptions in order to strengthen my weaker God-perceptions. As a child, I had to wear the patch for many months until my left eye grew stronger. As an adult, it means I may have to step aside at times from my "busyness" to get alone with my Friend and Father to focus solely on our relationship. Though I have many excuses, it is NECESSARY for my inner well being."

Bonnie, I love this. Mr. Linky is up over at my blog - be sure to stop by and post your link.

My step-daughter had to wear a patch to force develop her left retina because her eyes were not working equally when she was young. She hated the eye-patch and cried when we made her wear it. She was five as well.

One day a whole herd of girls came to play with our kids and Megan had on her patch. I called out my own daughters and said, "Go out and tell your friends Megan is wearing her patch. Tell them not to act like there is anything different about her, but to treat her as they normally would."

So, my girls did just that. I called Megan out to see if she wanted to play outside. She said she did, but would not go. I asked her if she was concerned they would see her patch.

She nodded her head as tears filled her eyes. I had scars on my forehead from an accident a couple of years before. I allowed Megan to look at my scars and feel them.

I then said, "Megan, do these scars change who I am?"

She shook her head to indicate they did not.

I said, "Do they change the way you feel about me?"

She shook her head again.

I said, "That eye patch you are wearing is only for a little while and then you won't have to wear it anymore. But, you have to wear it for it to work."

She nodded her head as the tears coursed down her cheeks.

"But, Megan... That patch is not who you are, and you are still beautiful and you are still our little girl. It doesn't change the way we feel about you."

She wiped at her tears.

"Why don't you go outside with the girls a while and if anyone says anything about your patch - you come and see me, okay?"

She nodded. She reluctantly went outside, but before long hers was the loudest giggle coming through the screen door.

A few weeks later we had her wear her patch in the car so that the timing would allow us to take it off when we arrived at our destination. We all forgot she was wearing the patch, including Megan and she wore it extra while we were shopping in a store and didn't even notice.

Her mother struggled making her wear the patch, but because we were diligent. Her eyes adjusted and became more balanced so she can now see more clearly than when she was five. Hard to believe those ten years have flown by so quickly.

Thanks for sharing. And see you aroung the blogosphere.

Denise said...

Beautiful sweetie, bless you. Michelle has mr. linky up now.

Laurie Ann said...

Love the spiritual eye patch analogy, Bonnie! Great post about staying focused on Him.

Patricia@Typing One-Handed said...

"As long as I live I will have problems with my spiritual focus too - it's a fact of life that we battle daily with our old nature. But by guarding our relationship with our Friend and Father jealously, and consciously refocusing on Him whenever we realize our vision is becoming skewed, we will continue to strengthen our hearts and walk in intimacy with Him."

This is truth! What a great way to share your perspective. Thank you, Bonnie!